It will happen for you

This is a post I have been wanting to write for a while, but just didn't know how to put it into words.This has been a very prominent thought in my head this year and one that it is important.I keep acknowledging the fact that I am now living my dream life, I'm here, but remember the days I used to yearn for this. The days when I felt like nothing was going my way or the life I wanted seemed too far fetched.The days when I felt my loneliest and wished for a full life. When I would look around and see other people happy and busy and enjoying their life. And I would be reminded of how empty my days felt.Or the times that my anxiety felt so out of control that I didn't recognize myself. Hell, I didn't even know who I really was. There was another voice controlling my experience.And when I started a new job at a new company and remember feeling complete dread. Thinking what did I get myself into, why did I leave everything I know behind?Coming into work, feeling like everyone was already friends with each other and there was no place for me. Like I would never make friends the way I did at my last company.Or when I would feel so lost in my career and my passions and not knowing where to go next. Like everything I worked for was a lie, or somehow a mistake on my part.I think back to the days when I wanted a fulfilling and exciting relationship, but most times felt a sense of hopelessness in achieving that.Seeing good friends entering into relationships and having fun and adventurous lives with their partner, and me making no progress in connecting with someone.Or even the days when I would feel really happy and optimistic about my future and pursuing a passion but thinking "I wish I had someone to share this with".Those days when I felt my lowest and resorted to a life alone, filling it the best I could with hobbies and friends and projects.And how about the days, years even, that I spent at war with my body. Wishing it would look different, or dieting to no avail.The thousands of hours that my mind was caught in a never ending loop of body comparison. Or spewing false beliefs that my body had to change in order for me to be happy.I can't even count the days that were filled with researching diets, perfecting my eating, searching for an answer, any answer, that would be my ticket to a better body.But you know what?I love those days, I'm grateful for those days that I was at my lowest.Because through all the fear, doubt, and unknown I continued to hold onto one belief.It won't always be this way.That my time will come, my dream life will manifest, and I'll remember those days I had faith.Because in those days was when I became my best self. When I persevered through the challenges and knew my time would come.That's when I dug deep to the core of me and learned who I really was. What I wanted for myself.And now I am living that life. I have everything I dreamed of and am actively building my future.My life is full, I am the happiest I have ever been and I pinch myself everyday that I am living this.Maybe you can relate to those days too, or maybe you are living them right now.But I promise you, it will happen for you.Keep pushing, keep being curious, be open minded and learn the lessons that the universe is sending you right now.Hold your faith strong and remember that these will be your best days, they are when you chose to design your dream life.